It’s not a performance I’m particularly proud of. I did it and that’s something to be glad about. But I didn’t quite nail it and that’s cringeworthy especially since another clown I know said frequent passing thoughts at the Downtown Clown Revue include: “What are they trying to do???” and “I think I know what they are trying to do.” But, it is after all supposed to be a place to try out new material and new ideas.
I was disappointed with my performance because in the moment I let go of my vision and allowed myself to be too influenced by my most recent contacts, Jef Johnson and Jango Edwards.
Another mommy clown who saw the performance asked me afterwards if I had nursed for a long time.
Is it that obvious?
I know I didn’t feel much like auditioning after my daughter was born. I kind of lost the need to put myself in front of an audience with my child following my every move, even in the bathroom. Motherhood does take a toll.
Another good friend said I looked pretty!